Wednesday, December 12, 2007
And She Shall Have Music
This day, I put in a bustle of horns.
As you see, I've been goofing with the other parts, but I've made no final decisions yet regarding the face.
I think the composition is getting a nice, vertiginous tilt to it. Balance, and in particular, the losing of balance has been an important topic for me this past year. What only a handful of people very close to me know (until now!) is that within weeks of Justin's birth I lost my balance. For good. At first I thought I was having a stroke, but after a CT scan and an MRI of my head revealed nothing (insert joke here), I was assured by my family doctor that I was having a bout of labyrinthitis and it would probably clear in a few weeks.
Well, here I am. Still, listing and tilting about. No one knows because I am able to control myself very well and use visual cues to right myself, and for accuracy's sake, I am not dizzy %100 of the time. But I do have it everyday. It made me very depressed and sometimes still does because I feel like I am not in full control of myself. If anything, this composition is to commemorate the in-folding of that rather troublesome new characteristic into my identity. And maybe glamorize it a bit, why not? Since it insists on staying, I'm going to put bells on it.